Moodiness is next to something

You know how I know when my hormones are controlling me? I spend half the day moping and the other half smiling. I'm like a crazed psychopath but I don't get the happy, numbing drugs. Hormones and emotions are horrible and wonderful things. I don't know if I care about anything or maybe care too much. My mind and emotions are on overload. I question everything and don't really know what I want or who I really want to be with. I have no idea if the person or persons I'm interested in even care to be with me. How's that for confusion? I have been logical for the majority of my life and it's like my brain shut down and let me float. I'm floating but have no idea where I'm going or how to get back to shore. It seems the more I paddle, the more I stay in one place. I guess this is where I need to be, to learn whatever it is that I need to learn.